Turn the page

Your fingers shake and your stomach, it feels…different. That is what gets you going, the drain from everyday life, and the different experiences. You take it all in (five senses) working together, like five of your fingers constantly shaking. Your hair, it’s getting long, but that’s what is great to see the growth in something physical not just yourself and it is in you. It is in you. I repeat for emphasis because emphasizing is what is needed at this point.

The do nots are what you have to watch out for because the do nots are what make your mind and body and heart just disagree with one another. It is here where you judge what is right. 
There comes a point where you cannot do it by yourself and you know what you want but no one is there. No one will ever be there. But you are wrong and that is okay.

This past weekend, I found a few parts of me that were not there before. 
This past weekend, my impulses worked with my heart and mind. 
This past weekend, I created a pinhole of happiness.

depression restoration expansion; the repetition of history. It is inside us all.

                                                                                

Turn Me Over

Inside, it is cold. As much as I hide my face from turning that apparent shade of red, I cannot. It is obvious I cannot lie. I think it is fair to say that no, don’t compare my beauty to another lady. It isn’t fair to me, and I will just walk away. It’s similar to a fear but easier to repress because it doesn’t mean much. I know what lay underneath, the thin layer of skin and natural features that every human has. It isn’t fair to knock me off for that. Inside, it is cold. The faucet broke the other night and when I flip my pillow over, I hope for it to be cold. My body does not move toward the warm spots at night, it moves toward the cold. 

“It’s natural to be afraid.”

                                                                          

Generality

Uncertain, but I am certain of this:

Imperfection is what I believe to be the most human quality of our species. It is what creates that relationship between you and another. The imperfections are what you accept or reject in a person. It is the boundary, the most uncomfortable part of you, the shield that you hold so high above you; you leave this part of you a secret. 

The act of creating the secret and allowing the secret to be liberated is what will allow the unification. 

It is a matter of the chance you grab hold of, the matter of acting on such, and permitting yourself to let go.  

                                                                                

oh, vacation

Every relationship is supposed to be something new. You should not compare one to the other, take one and relate it to a relationship from the past. It is entirely new. Not two people are the exact same. This is a part of life most people fail to realize. This is why many relationships do not last. 

Time matters. “Right now isn’t the right time for us” and you ask yourself over and over again, why? But now it doesn’t matter because you should not wait. Take the chance to move on and have an experience with someone new. 

we looked like giants

the song has a whole different connotation now, this is a different page I have turned. moving on for most is a hard concept but to be honest, you shouldn’t move on but rather, store the love, the hate, the feelings you felt, and learn from it and store it into your body, your soul, your mind. 
last night, I realized that there are different aspects of love and how awfully great it is to feel such a powerful love. you brought me wine and burned a death cab cd, we walked and stumbled in the park and told secrets, you played your guitar (a song you don’t show many) and bought me burger king and a frosty because you know my sweet tooth is beyond the imaginable. at the lake, we talked and whined and were sad because of the timeline, the circumstance, and before dropping me off I helped you scoop the frosty out of the backseat. 
we shared a cigarette, you brought me home.